( malak warbles over on his branch at the sound of his name, but elects to stay out of it. probably for the best with all the fussing they're doing. julian shaking like a leaf, his hands moving from place to place like he doesn't know where to settle them. it's exactly what he was worried about. that once he put his arms around her and started to have this moment, he wouldn't be able to control himself anymore. a hand-hold here and the odd touch there, that's different. but an embrace, warm and comforting and fond, is... god.

he just never thought he'd feel its like ever again. from anyone. ever.

it's all he can do not to cry. he's not really a crier around other people much, just by habit, but sometimes it can't be helped. he's an emotional guy. always was. and right now—well, for right now he just moves his hands from her arms to her back to the back of her head, never pausing long, like he just can't find the way to hold her that's enough. but of course he can't. nothing ever could be, could it? and look, his feathers are getting all ruffled again. literally. )

You're never going to be safe around me. Why would you want that? You're too smart to be this stupid. Too smart, and... strong, and graceful, a-and lovely, and...